Honestly

-I smoke cigarettes because they make me feel cool.
-I try hard in school not because I care about my grades, my future, the subject matter of the class, what my parents want, or to try to make up for my almost certain failure in years prior, but because I have nothing else to do.
-I love getting sympathy and attention.
-I take everything personally.
-The main reason I have never been in a fight or hit anyone is because I can feel the pain I would be causing the person just by thinking about it.
-Almost everything I do is for selfish reasons, no matter how selfless it may seem.
-I am terrified of meeting new people but I act like I'm not.
-One of the biggest reasons I never believed in god is because my mom tried so hard to make me a believer.
-I'm in control of my emotions when I try, but I usually don't.
-I'm excellent at masking my feelings.
-I don't like having favors done for me; I want to do everything myself. I then wonder why everything seems so hard.
-My friends mean more to me than they know.
-I used to lie about a lot. About anything.
-I hate taking medication I am prescribed, despite probably needing it.
-I care what everyone thinks of me. I want to be liked by everyone, even people I can't stand.
-I do things to fit in.
-I don't enjoy being high nearly as much as the physical act of smoking.
-I believe in love.
-I don't believe there is a meaning of life.
-I hate being told what to do, and when people tell me what to do I get a strong urge to do the opposite.
-I hold grudges.
-I love laughing and I can be made to laugh very easily.